Topping It Off

I’m not cynical, just detachedly clinical.

Tell me, how do you feel now that you’'ve reached the pinnacle?

Are you happy yet ? Can you touch the sky?

Now that you have it all, do you want to die?

Or live it up and risk the fall?

Are you straddling or standing tall?

Still trying to balance and hold onto it all?

The choice is there — it’s time to raise or call.

Displaced Duality

Emotions displaced,

not ready to be faced.

Mixed thoroughly, carefully dissolved,

wrapped up, put away — problem never solved.

Contained for the moment —

evolving and ready to foment.

Growing hotter, the container begins to smolder.

Duality engulfed by chaos, it is concurrently colder.

When duality is defeated

reality is conceded.

Nothing is left to be concerned.

All that was died when truth was burned.

Evolving Solution

When life was just a game, I loved to play.

But suddenly it’s real — ultimately surreal.

And the stakes are higher than I ever thought they’d be.

There’s no endgame, but still a need for strategy.

They may patronize, but still I strategize for a goal I’ve yet to realize.

The pieces fit, I know this, I watched as they fell apart.

Never quite picked them up but I came alive —

Tabula Rasa, slightly faded and just a little jaded.

Started anew but now thinking I should go back.

Pick up those pieces and puzzle it out because

as I’ve been reflecting on the evidence I’ve been collecting,

I have seen so many memories I’ve been neglecting.

I knew so much more than I ever gave myself credit for.

I had the certainty that comes with clarity.

I simply lacked the confidence to bring it into reality.

So afraid of being mistaken that my whole world collapsed when it was suddenly shaken.

I chose to build a house of cards and for a long while it held high,

but it was never strong and I wasn’t meant to fly.

A puzzle, put together rationally, held together by confidence and unshakable belief

will withstand, because I finally understand.

I was never the problem, I am the solution.

And I have the will, the way and, the resolution.

I don’t need a revolution, this is simply evolution.

I Do....

Confusion of delusion, ultimately an elusive illusion.
Never clear enough to see through, never close enough to dispel or perhaps too close causing the unwell swell.
But rip it away, stripped bare, naked — —vulnerable and scared.
Suddenly aware there were never separate versions, simply illusory dispersions and desperate aversions.
Tired of hiding, standing up tall, let them look, I will not fall.
Finding comfort in just my own skin, knowing there's nothing to win, only so very much to lose.
It is my reality, maybe it's yours too —— only the solution matters and it is self evident.

I simply have to choose.
To be. Don't try. Just live.
Nothing to prove.
A simple choice in essence.
I Do.

Word Mesh Flow

Who Are You?

What are your beliefs?

What are your ideals?

You tell me that you love me,

but I have to know its real.

I'm not saying that I won't love you,

but you have to understand,

I have to know you as a person,

before I can love you as a man.

Tell me your values,

I'm sorry if you can't,

blind love just isn't good enough.

I hope that you understand.

Reset Forget

Forgive,

Forget,

Nothing yet.

Remember to forget.

No, nothing yet.


Forget

To Remember,

No, still nothing yet.

Never forget,

Never forgive,

Just let go, let the balance reset.

Ended Unattended

Hopes and wishes tendered,

Dreams were rendered,

Words surrendered,

Unattended.

Bright lines,
Whose rules?
White lines,
No clues.
Bright lights,
Silent flashes,

White lights,
Chalk to ashes.

The Wall Will Fall Eventually

My philosophy is that things are just as bad as they seem.

If my life were gymnastics I'd be straddling the balance beam.
If my life were a sport, I'd still be in the locker room.
And if I were a frightful witch,
I'd still be looking for my broom.
I am sitting on wall and feeling like Humpty-Dumpty -

Potential

Was just another stupid genius,

never considered how I'd hold up under the pressure,
sorry that I couldn't keep it together,
my soul melted as I burned so brightly,
guess you never believed that was my potential.
The sad thing is that it's something that I have always known,
and at some point, I just ceased to care,
l lived up to it just to prove I could, and would.
But I almost destroyed myself in proving that point,
and now I have nothing left,
nothing left to lose,
nothing left to prove.
And now I have everything,
everything to do again,
a second chance,
a chance to change,
rearrange my priorities,
and to remember that my potential is to just be me.

Haunting Questions

Where are you, why do haunt me?

Who are you, what do you want to be?

Will you help me, will you hold me down?

Will you free me, or will you keep me bound?

Do you love me, are you consumed by hate?

Do we have a choice, could it be fate?

Will you be angry, or will you be sad?

Will you know what I've done, the lovers I've had?

Will you care, will you make it right?

Will you give it up or is it worth the fight?

Will you find me, or continue to taunt?

Will it be forever or will I become a haunt?