Who is Questioning?

Why can't I love,
why can't I trust?
I want to,
I do, but I cannot.
What scars do I have,
What pain has made me numb?
I wish I could tell,
I do, but I cannot.
Why do I try,
Why do I sabotage myself?
I wish I could stop,
I do, but I cannot.
Why can't I be normal,
Why do I go to extremes?
I need to,
I do, stop I cannot.
Why don't I admit I have a problem,
Why do I hide behind a mask?
STOP! You ask too much,
You do, and you should not.